Ang Pagkahol Ng Isang Aso

         Ayoko na muna ng mga English na tirada. Gusto kong maipahayag ang sarili ko sa kung paano at saan ako mas komportable, kung saan mas madarama ng bawat indibidwal dito ang bawat salitang idinidikta ko dito. Gusto ko lang maunawaan nyo 'tong lahat. Medyo iba ang dating siguro neto para sa iba, pero eto talaga yun.


        Marunong ka bang makuntento kahit konti lang? Kaya mo bang sabihin na sapat na yung nagawa mo? Masasabi mo bang yan lang talaga yun at kaya mong unawain yun base sa mga pinaggagagawa nya o sa mundong ginagalawan nya? Paano kung iba pala ang pananaw nya para dyan? Hindi rin natin masisisi ang ilan sa mga ating nakakasalamuha sa bawat paglalakbay na ating tinatahak sa bawat araw na lumilipas. Hindi ko alam kung bakit kasi big deal sa mga magulang ko yung grades na nakuha ko ngayong semester. Aminin man natin, di ko nakuha yung markang matataas at nakakapagpabilib sa kanila tulad nung mga nakaraan pero sa kasamaang palad, di na ulit nangyaring muli. Nabigo ko sila sa pagkakataong 'to, pero parang ang laki ng mawawala sa akin. Hindi naman dapat sa mga pinagkakaabalahan ko dapat isisi ang mga ito. Tao lang po ako, hindi ako napakaperpekto na kailangan ay ma-maintain ang bawat bagay na nagagawa ko.


Filipino1 - 1.75
GenPsyc - 1.75
Operating System - 1.50
Operation Research - 1.50
Web Programming - 2.25
Accounting - 2.50
Software Engineering - 3.00
Advanced Database - 3.00

GWA: 2.19


        Yan yung mga resulta ng masasabi ko namang pinaghirapan ko. Hindi ko lang alam kung bakit sobrang nadidismaya sila nang sobra-sobra. Gusto kong magpaliwanag at ipaunawa 'to, pero wala akong pagkakataon para doon. Inuunahan nila ako at nagbibigay agad ng kanilang konklusyon. Nasanay siguro sila na naging DL(Dean's Lister) ako ng dalawang beses. Pero may mga bagay naman talaga na di talaga makukuhang muli kahit na ipilit at pagpursigihan diba? Ayokong ipakitang maging mayabang ako, may pride lang ako, pero 1.48 GWA ko nung 1st year/1st sem at 1.41 naman nung 1st year/2nd sem. Di gaanong kataasan pero maipagmamalaki ko lalo sa pamilya ko. Nung mga sumunod na sem, na-maintain ko naman kahit papaano at nakaakyat ng entablado para makuha ang mga gantimpala na karapat-dapat para sa akin. Nakakatuwa at may halong emosyonal ang mga ganung scenario. Kung pwede lang sana e ganun palagi para naman maging proud sila sa akin.


        Mahal ko ang musika. Walang makakapagpabago dun. Dito siguro humubog ang aking pagkatao. Isa rin 'to sa mga nagiging inspirasyon at pinanghuhugutan ko. Ito rin ang nagiging boses ko, nagbibigay motibasyon, pampawi ng lungkot ko, nagbibigay saya at kung anu-ano pang emosyon. Alam kong ganun din kayo pero sa ibang mga pamamaraan siguro. Namulat ako sa mundo ng paggigitara, pagsusulat, maging sa pagbabanda, hanggang sa tumugtog sa iba't-ibang entablado at baryo. Hindi ako kagalingan, pero may sapat na karunungan ako para ihayag ang sarili ko sa pamamagitan ng tunog na nagagawa ko. Hindi naman mahalaga sa akin kung may mas magaling sa akin o mas magaling ako sa kanila. Ang importante sa akin ay nailalabas ko ang bugso ng aking damdamin sa pamamagitan nito kasama ng mga kabanda ko at sa mga nakakasabay ko. Hindi lang naman ito ang mundo ko eh. Nagkataon lang na nabibigyan ko ito ng oras pero hinding-hindi ko nakakalimutan ang edukasyong binibigay sa akin, PAG-AARAL sa madaling salita. Pero Rakenrol pa rin palagi!


        Nahirapan talaga ako ngayong semester, pero pinipilit kong makayanan ang lahat para lang makapasa sa mga subjects ko nun. Alam kong hirap ako, pero kakayanin ko! Pinili ko kasing tahakin ang ganitong larangan eh. Wala namang ibang nag-udyok sa akin para gawin ang ganitong hakbang, sarili ko lamang. Napagtuunan ko rin ng pansin ngayon ang pagbabanda pero hindi naman ito napapadalas. Alam ko kung saan at kailan ko ilulugar 'to dahil mas priority ko ang bagay na kahit kailanman ay hinding-hindi maaagaw ng kahit sinuman sa akin pagdating ng panahon. Alam naman ng mga kaklase ko kung paanong hirap ang ibig kong sabihin eh. Siguro nga masasabi nilang lakwatsa ang ginagawa ko kung madalas e lalabas ako ng bahay. Pero hindi, tinatakasan ko lang minsan yung problema ko. Sinusubukan kong bawasan ito ng paunti-unti at itutuloy muli pagbalik sa tahanan. Sila yung barkada, na nakakapagbigay saya sa akin sa mga oras na akala mo wala talaga akong dinadalang mabigat na pinapasan. Sa saglit na kasiyahan na iyon, napapawi kahit papaano yung mga yun. Sa pamamagitan ng pagtambay, nakakatulong din pala. Hindi kami nag-aadik, o gumagawa ng mga walang ka-kwenta kwentang bagay. Nagiging inspirasyon ko rin itong mga taong 'to para sa mga pinaggagagawa ko sa loob ng paaralan.


        Napapadalas yung pag-uwi ko ng kinabukasan, inuumaga na, nahuhuli ng uwi dahil naman yun sa mga overnight na nagaganap para tapusin ang dapat tapusin. Kasama na rin dito ang pagtambay kasi sobrang nade-depress at stress ako sa mga nangyayari lalo na sa pag-aaral. Sana maintindihan din nila tayo kasi alam kong naiintindihan nyo rin ito. Hindi ko naman gusto ang pagpapadalas ng ganung bagay eh. Mahirap din talaga kasi pero kailangan talaga. Sa pagbabanda naman, hindi naman kami laging nagkikita eh. Nagkakausap kami e pag merong kelangan gaya ng tugtog o kaya ensayo para sa mga darating na event. Hindi naman kami gaya ng mga tanyag na musikero na halos araw-araw ay nasa mga entablado para magbigay ng tunog at ingay sa tenga ng mga makikinig at manonood sa kanila.


        Iba ako, alam ko kung ano ang dapat unahin at alin ang dapat pahalagahan. Basta nung Finals, defense na kasi namin sa dalawang major subjects ko nun. Ginawa namin ang lahat at pinakita kong kaya ko iyon. Hindi ako nag-aasam ng mala-perpektong resulta pero sabi naman ng propesor ko "Basta alam mo yung ginagawa mo, walang problema dun. Ipaglaban mo lang dapat." Nakahinga rin kami nang maluwag, para bang nabunutan ng tinik nung natapos yung defense namin. Nakakagaan sa pakiramdam kapag ganun.


"Better 3.0 than 5.0" sabi nga ng iba.


        Dumating yung araw na para kuhain yung mga grades ko nun. Maraming tumatakbo sa isip ko nun. Nanaginip kasi ako bago yung araw na yun eh. Binagsak ko daw yung dalawang major subjects ko na yun. Di na ako mapakali lalo na nung papalapit na ng papalapit yung araw na yun. Nandun na ako, konting hakbang na lang at makukuha ko na ang mga grado ko. Dahan-dahan kong ibinuklat ang papel na yun. HIYON!!! Laking gulat ko na nakasabit pa ako. Sobrang nagpapasalamat talaga ako nun sa mga dapat pasalamatan. Nung paglabas ko na lang ng paaralan ako sumigaw. YES! YES! YES!!!! parang ganyang yung tema. Pagdating ko sa bahay, kasalungat ang reaksyon ng ilaw ng tahanan. Bakit daw ganun? Nagalit din daw erpats ko nung nalamang ganun ang naging resulta. Sinubukan kong magpaliwanag pero hindi talaga tumalab. Maswerte pa nga ako at hindi ako bumagsak at nagpapasalamat pa nga ako at hindi yun ang naging kapalaran ko gaya ng iba. Pinagbubutihan ko naman ang lahat para lang maging maganda ang kalabasan.


        Nariyan na ang haligi ng tahanan, matinding ratrat ng bala ang tinamo ko. Para na naman akong nakikipag-argumento sa isang matinding panelist na mahirap paamuhin dahil sa ubod ng panggigisa gaya ng nararanasan sa defense. Isinisisi sa pagtutugtog ko, barkada ko, at kung ano pa yung ibang pinagkakaabalahan ko. Gusto kasi nila sa isang bagay lang ako naka-focus. Pero paano ko magagawa yun? Mas epektibo nga ba kapag ganun yung ginawa ko kung sakaling pag-aralin pa ako ngayon? "Hindi siguro yan ang solusyon" sabi ko sa sarili ko. Hindi rin naman ako makakapalag kung sasagot pa ako kasi hindi rin naman ako magkakaroon ng pagkakataon para makapagpaliwanag at ihayag ang aking sarili. Wala. Wala na. Wala na akong pagkakataon. Mauuwi lang din sa wala. Masasayang lang ata ng hininga at laway ko kapag nagbitaw ako ng salita para kumbinsihin sila sa ganito. Gusto nilang bitawan ko ang lahat ng meron ako at magtuloy sa pag-aaral kung saka-sakali. Patas nga ba ang laban? Makatarungan kaya ang tema nito para sa akin. Kung kayo nasa kalagayan ko, matatanggap mo ba kung ganito ang kahahantungan mo? Kung hindi ko daw kaya, wag na daw ako magtuloy. Kaya ko naman, nahihirapan lang ako. Wala akong sinabi na hindi ko kaya. Hangga't kaya ko, ilalaban ko pa rin kahit maubos man paisa-isa ang hibla ng buhok ko. Kahit magpatong-patong pa ng ilang layer ng eyebags sa mga mata ko. Lumalim man ang mata ko kada-araw na lilipas. Pero hinding-hindi ko pwedeng bitawan yung mga bagay na nakakapagpasaya sa akin kahit minsan ko lang 'to pagtuunan ng pansin. Eto at sila yung mga nagbibigay lakas sa akin para harapin yung mga pagsubok na meron ako.


        This is how the punk that used to be. I'm making a statement. Di pa ito yung pangkalahatan, pero ibinuod ko na lang. Maiintidiha't mauunawaan nyo na rin yan kahit papaano diba? Ayokong magmukhang drama ito kapag nabasa nyo 'to. Gusto ko lang sana ilabas 'tong nararamdaman ko dahil hindi ko na talaga kayang pigilan. Kayo na ang bahala kung katawa-tawa ito, korni, kadramahan para sa inyo ang ginawa kong ito. Hindi man ako ganun katalino o ka-henyo gaya ng iba, pero makikipagsabayan ako taglay ng karunungan na meron ako at sa pamamagitan ng diskarte, sa paraang alam kong ito ang nararapat. Inaalay ko itong pahayag na ito para sa mga kaibigan ko, kabarkada ko, mga kabanda ko, sa mga inspirasyon ko, nakasalamuha sa pang-araw-araw, sa ibang mga makakabasa nito, sa mga magulang ko, at lalong lalo na kay Bro. Saludo ako sa inyong lahat. Kayo na pong bahala sa lahat ng aking mga naisiwalat.

Friends

       “If your friends don't make fun of you, they're not really your friends.”

As the heat continuously emerging, I came up with these thoughts. I was awakened from a deep sleep. I’m like living in the agony of defeat. I asked these questions to myself for a million of times. Why? Why could it be something like this? Why could it have to be this way? Why could those stuffs have to change? Maybe these are only my basis as a friend. As a friend, I used to make fun of them all the time. Are you a friend of mine? Are you real or not? 

            I may sometimes be an idiot to them as I’ve done this. I have certainly been betrayed by several friends and when it happens, it's really awful especially when it happened more than once. You seriously need to find real friends as false friends are very emotionally draining. I tried not to live in the past. There comes a time in your life when you stop chasing after people, it’s not what you called giving up, it is realizing that you don’t need certain people with the bullshit and drama that they bring. I’ve been left by some of my friends that I used to call as a family to me. But that necessarily means that I’m done, I just started over and find someone new. They have brought the flood; they left me drowning and didn’t come back. The tides are getting higher, but still, I managed to survive. I saved myself. I didn’t sink, I just swim. I removed my pride once just to bring them back to me, but that wasn’t good enough. It didn’t work. I keep on realizing that they won’t come back anymore. I’ve always kept in my mind that they’re just a purpose. They used to be a challenge to my journey even though it’s hard for me to think about it. I just don’t want to feel that thing no more. I’m sick and tired of begging and waiting for the things that I want. I’m feeling numb from all that has become. It’s like leaving your gums, slipping down your tongue, and traveling fast down towards your lungs. And it’s just all because I’m leaving that all behind. I tallied it up, I settled all the scores.



            I still can’t believe the troubles that they’ve caused. The pain that I feel is getting stronger like an open wound without the gauze. It’s on my mind, it’s driving me insane. But that was before, and I’m a lot of better now. Enough is enough, I’m done. Let’s just move on and accept the fact that it won’t come back. It won’t let you down. I know that the truth hurts, but this is the time to realize something that will make you want to start. Make and find new friends. Find someone that will make fun of you too, that will never leave you behind. You don’t need a lot of it, but just a few true friends that you can really trust.

The Man of Rock and Roll

"Not all the students are the same as the instructor." - Engr. Migz S. Migote

      That was the line that dazzled me as his sign of farewell to us. I wasn't able to burst my tears but I should have done it. His message makes us trembling and shivers down our spine. It is something like when the wind picked up, it would give goose bumps. Anyway, I have to cut your dramatic imagination as of now. It will be a little near of satisfaction I should say. So much for that, let me introduce to you one of the best professor that I've encountered in my adventure, journey, and in my daily life.

BSIT404's last day of Physics 2 with him.

 

      It was way back last year, June 13, 2012. It was our first day of school as fresh sophomores back then. And so here we are, after our first subject, COPRO3 laboratory (Computer Programming 3) with Mr. Manulat form 10am to 1pm, it is the time to meet our professor in Physics 2. But we still have to wait for one and a half hour that was our vacant before the next subject. As the tainted clock is ticking in our heads, all of us were confused of who will be our prof in the subject. But the majority hoped that it would be him. Yes, I'm pertaining to the man of the rock and roll. We assumed that it will be him because most of the students that enrolled from Physics before were under with him. We were grateful and built with much excitement as we think of it. And yet, we're still disoriented and worried because it's not that completely sure. There is still nervousness that builds in our insides. As the time runs out, it's now the time to meet our next subject. Almost all of us entered that laboratory room. Some of us are making noise, some are going out because of coldness, some are just behave, and some are in their own world. As the mysterious prof entered quickly, we were all surprised. IT'S HIM! YES, IT'S HIM. Some declared that it was no doubt that he will handle us for the whole semester. I was also surprised when it revealed that it was him. Because in our assessment form, the prof in Physics was not revealed, so I said a while ago that it is mysterious. I'm glad the he was our prof at that time because I've been hearing a lot of people that Sir Migz is a great prof. We will be lucky if he will go and handle us. As the time goes by, he made an early dismissal. Consider it. It's our first day and no lessons to be tackled about, but just an introduction of ourselves. As I observed his way of teaching, I said to myself that "Cool! Those people that I heard in our campus were right about this one.". We were so lucky to have him. He's a kind of prof. that will throw some jokes, sometimes he used to crack it up. When someone seems to

BSIT305--After the acquaintance party w/ Sir Migz (July 2012)

be not interested with the lesson, sleepy or bored I'd say, he will tell a story that is based on his experiences that is full of fun. In that manner, all of us will laugh so hard with the feeling of blasting our heads and breaking our jaws. The thing that maybe makes him unique is because of using foul and bad words to us mostly like "PUTANG INA", "GAGO", "PAKYU", "ULUL!". As the Filipinos think about it, they would say "Malutong" or hard. Haha! At first, I was shocked into it. But I can't even help myself. Sometimes, we get rid of it too and we're also using those unnecessary words. Haha! Sometimes, he used to say "Wag na ako, iba na lang". His own translation for that was "Stop me". And because of that ridiculousness, we easily laugh on it. It is actually funny. We're like dying little by little as he tries to make some jokes. What a great sense of humor!

 These are some catchphrase that you'll usually hear from him as far as I remember:
    *Putang ina naman oh!
    *Pakyu!
    *Ulul!
    *Ulul! Wag nga ako.
    *Wag na ako, (name) iba na lang.
    *Stop me, please.
    *Makikita nyo na naman ang gandang lalaki ko.
    *Lahat ng mga girls dyan sa labas ng room e sa akin talaga napapatingin.
    *Cheap shot
    *Rock and roll!

 Translation of some words that I've mention were "motherfucker", "fuck you", "stupid", "Not me, you stupid", etc.

 Those are just some of his usual lines during the class. I'll never forget the phrase when he said "NO JUSTICE, FUCK THE POLICE!". When I heard that, I was like "Oh my rhrhun645yt4^&^%YUD%HRH^%^$$%#$TBGFBGFH!!!". I was like I agreed with him like I would like to respond and say "Hell yeah!". Yes, he loves to rock and roll.


      Enough! Anyway, he's also strict when it comes to quizzes, laboratory activities, and especially exams. But still, he's approachable when you want to ask him if you don't know about it. Sometimes, he will answer you just a bit, and you'll remain there with a hint over you mind. I have so much fun with him from his Physics 1 class, and throughout the semester.

During our laboratory in Physics 2 (December 2012)

      I think I’m done with the first semester that I had with him. Let’s now start with the second semester, Physics 2. It was way back October 2012, our enrollment for the new semester. He was there as one of those who handled the assessment. We didn’t expect that he will be our professor in Physics AGAIN. He tried to fool us around although his name’s there.

Note: Even though the name of the professor was encoded in the corresponding subject, there’s still a possibility that it would change.

       And the story will be still the same, from his nonstop laughing jokes, rock and roll, and all those good times that got rolled. I don’t have something much to say with this one maybe because the outcome would be like the first one. This semester is more epic than the previous one. Even if we’re able to predicted some of it, but still catches us right away. His style never gets old from us, maybe to others that were under him before. I really don’t know why I used to laugh hard especially with the way of using those bad words. Is it maybe am I like that also? Do I reflect from his manners? Or am I just captured by those humorous auras? Anyway, Physics 2 was hard for everyone that took and studied it. With him, he will make it easy as he tries it with his very best.


      He is Mr./Engr. Migz Santos Migote who took a course of Bachelor of Science in Electronics and Communication Engineering (BSECE). He graduated from MAPUA Institute of Technology. I don't know if it's form Makati or the Intramuros branch. Maybe it's from Intramuros because most of the engineering courses were there, but I'm not pretty sure about it. He was my professor in Physics 1 and Physics 2. He’s a handsome and cool guy that I’ve ever met throughout my adventure. (He also admitted it, so don’t complaint.) He also tells us a bit of story about his experiences especially as a teenager. He also tells us about his previous work especially in other country. I laugh and somehow inspired. I got some ideas that I may bring someday in the future. As his last day of lecture with us, he gave us some piece of advice. He said to us that keep dreaming. There are some of his points that I noted and will always remember. As I heard those words that came out from his mouth, I was like a bird that freely escaped the cage. I was that man that stepped outside the box. I was that man that was alone in a dark and crowded room that managed to escape and find the light. There would be no time to talk to him just between us, but if I would have that chance, I’ll grab it and won’t miss any of it. But in this way, this could be my way of saying thanks to him. This could be the way of admiring him. He’s now part of my inspirations as my journey continues. Thank you for the good times and hard times. I salute you, sir. Just always rock, and let the good times roll. I hope that you’ll still be my professor for the remaining semesters. ROCK AND ROLL!

Burn That Light

      Are you guys ready for this? Are you ready for the massive thirst? Are you ready for your skin as it gets darker? As the water gets warmer? Music gets louder, nights get longer, and mostly, life gets better. And so this is it. As the summer begins to invade us, let's bring and feel the heat!

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    As a child, it is usually the time for fun with the sun and began with the ringing of the last bell of the day. It signified that it was time to throw away old homework assignments and to forget about anything to do with school for three months at least. It is usually the most awaited part of the year, the summer. This is a time of simple pleasures and exciting times of the year. This is actually a great time of having late night sleepovers with best friends, hanging out at somewhere you want, and not having to worry about homework, projects, and any other stuff at school that had been lingering in the mind since classes began after this vacation. Some of us could be excited for this, and some are not. Some would rather go to the places like they've never known. Some will visit their relatives in their provinces. Some would go for an outing like having a swimming in a beach or into a pool. When this vacation finally rolls around, I can never make up my mind-on what to do first. Should I go outside at exactly 12 in the afternoon like a hotdog being fried in the pan? Should I ride with my bike together with my friends out there and go home when we got exhausted? Should I go with my friends and have a great bonding just like we used to? Or should I go to sleep until the summer ends because I feel like I'm one of those zombies? Well, that could be my options and let me decide about this. One thing was for certain though, the family vacation. For some, it was a dreadful thing but not for my close knit family and me. But then again, let's just enjoy and have some great and good time with our family and friends. Some of us would be problematic as the vacation comes. Do you want to know why? It's all because about the money. Without money, some lives would be ruined. Well of course, we cannot buy the things that we want. Some of us absolutely need this for some reason. Maybe, it’s financially or in any kind of purpose. But for some, there's no big deal about it as long as there are friends to cherish with during the season. There are some of us would have this vacation as simple. Simple in a way that no trip to vacation, no hanging out especially swimming, and nothing at all. What I'm talking about is they're just inside their homes. They're in front of their computer and laptops or any other gadgets that they have. They are just there watching T.V. in a nonsense way. I don't find that thing as boring, but I may call it as simple as that.


      For us, this is very important. We usually do what we want to. We sleep and rest whenever we want to. We hang out with them wherever we want to. We have different stories for this coming vacation. We have our own way to enjoy our vacation for a couple of months. As a child, they used to play outside with their mates until the night gets late. They will laugh until they got choked. As a teenager, they used to go to places that we want for adventure. We do it for experiences and share with others. And as an adult, they used this time for rest and some sort of work at home. They used to spend time with their family that they have. But there’s only one thing that I can assure you is that we all feel the heat. So let's all burn the light together and have fun.

Moving To Another Town

 I've been telling this to my couple of friends that we're moving to another town for so many times these past weeks. From Makati City, we’re going to transfer to Antipolo City. I also told them that there's a possibility that I can't continue to study in the same school anymore. I even told them that I'll transfer from another school due to the distance that I may travel if we moved there. My friends and schoolmates out there can't even believe me. Some of them are shocked; some of them don't believe me as I used to make fun to them. But this time, let's make it more serious.


 I started having this unnecessary feeling since last week when I got home late. I was at school for our Career Factor batch 5. After that session, I decided to come and join with my co-facilitators and friends to watch their practice of cheering together with the other cluster’s practice there in BCDA. I witnessed some of the performances, and their awesome. As the clock is ticking, night’s getting late and dark outside, we decided to go home first. As I reached my home, there they are. I found them gathered and having a couple of drink with my relatives who’ll help them to haul our things later on. They’re just waiting for the jeep that will be used to carry the baggage. I’m tired and sleepy that time, but there’s no reason for me to rest for a sudden. I am needed to help them and will arrange those hauled baggage there. It’s just a few hours as we reached our destination because of the clear road and no other vehicles around, thanks to that. We continue to pack those things up in our newly own home, sweet home. We almost finished the tasks without seeing the sunrise. And so there I am, can’t sleep easily. So, I decided to check my accounts first, talk to some friends, and listen to music. I finally yawn and get some sleep at 4am. (Ohh, that’s so late! But it is normal for those nocturnal. LOL)


  We finally got home again here in Makati because there are still some important things here. We’re not yet officially moved from the town that I am pertaining. It’s sad to think that I may leave those people who used to be special and important to me, and I have nothing to do about it but accept the fact that it will happen for all of a sudden.  I know that it's hard for them to know, and of course for me to broadcast this kind of news, but I have nothing to do with this one. I want to continue and finish my studies in that school as I also promised it to myself. But as I visualized what will happen, I'll give up with that kind of scenario. So, there comes a thought that I’m going to transfer from another school. My parents also suggested for this one, but my classmates, friends and schoolmates would rather not agree with it. There was a case that my sister and I will rent a room here in Makati to continue our studies here. Since she passed the entrance exam in Makati Science and I’ll be a 3^rd year soon, we agreed with that. And still we can’t find even a single room nearby our schools. I appreciated also those friends that helping me find a room for us to stay. I am very thankful that I have those people and I really appreciated it. There is still hope in me, and with that case, I won’t easily give up and give in.


It’s really hard for us, both my friends and I to come up with this kind of situation. Some began to be dramatic when they heard about this one. Some of them will miss me. I can’t imagine that I’m being missed someday. I don’t want that kind of feeling because I am not accustomed with that. I just only want them to accept those facts and smile. I don’t even remember that I said goodbye to them, I just remember that I’ll see them soon. I may find new friends, new environment, new faces, new names, new world, but I won’t forget those people that didn’t turn their backs on me, those people who accepts me for what I am and for who I am, those people that are always there for me in ups and downs. But after all of those that I’ve just said, I will not transfer to another school, just transfer from another house.


And yet, we still have 5 days left to stay in this town. What will be going to happen as we moved there? Some changes will be witnessed and adjustments. I can come up with this and struggle with it.